Tag Archives: fear

To Every Boss I’ve Ever Had

Posted on January 26, 2011 by Danielle Boonstra

This is not about you.  But we’ll get to that. I’ve been a cashier, a babysitter, a customer service rep, a receptionist, an administrative assistant, a research assistant and an entrepreneur.  I’ve been promoted, demoted, passed over, hired, fired, praised … Continue reading →

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After a Binge ~ A Conversation

Posted on January 20, 2011 by Danielle Boonstra

I  can’t believe I did it again.  What was I thinking? I am 31 years old! When does it stop??!! It’s done. Forgive yourself. What do I do now? I’m a fraud. I’m ridiculous…pathetic. I’m so tempted… We don’t do … Continue reading →

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Learning at the Speed of Love

Posted on January 18, 2011 by Danielle Boonstra

I am open today.  I’ve been open for a while.  I’ve been learning at high speed.  I’ve been learning at the speed of Love. With a mind at peace and my breathing slowed I open myself up to infinite wisdom … Continue reading →

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And Then My Soul Craved Beauty

Posted on December 22, 2010 by Danielle Boonstra

I did not know how bad it had gotten.  I did not know. How starved my spirit had become, I did not know. How shallow was my breathing, I did not know. How bland was the food I ate, I did … Continue reading →

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Because Kind Is Who You Are

Posted on November 8, 2010 by Danielle Boonstra

I’ve done some bad things in my life.  I’ve made people cry.  I’ve spread rumours.  I’ve caused others to hurt.  And perhaps I am not unique in this, but it affects me all the same.  I don’t like knowing that I have … Continue reading →

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This Weight

Posted on October 14, 2010 by Danielle Boonstra

I used to weigh 215 lbs.  I share this with you not to look for sympathy, earn your disgust or to make you feel bad about yourself.  I say it to release it.  That was me then.  What I was on the … Continue reading →

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The Place In Between

Posted on September 8, 2010 by Danielle Boonstra

I have felt as though I am on the brink of something for quite some time.  It was as though I was walking toward a cliff and could not see what lay below.  Now, however my toes dangle over and I need only … Continue reading →

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To Love My Way Through It

Posted on August 24, 2010 by Danielle Boonstra

While I love myself for my optimism, it seems I may have imparted something that was premature.  I have said that I have healed myself.  I have not.  I am healing.  It is a process, something I work at continuously.  While my strength, … Continue reading →

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Feeding My Fear

Posted on August 12, 2010 by Danielle Boonstra

Sweet, sweet self-realization! I have come to realize how many unhealthy behaviours I have exhibited in the past and how all of them have stemmed from fear.  Wowza.  There’s the bulimia, the chronic lying, the panic attacks, the postpartum depression….etc….you … Continue reading →

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The Fear Within Becomes the Love Without

Posted on June 22, 2010 by Danielle Boonstra

It started with fear, but it ends with love.  For too long my body has been at the mercy of my most fearful thoughts.  “I’m too big.  I’m not good enough. I’ll never be really loved.” etc.  And now, with … Continue reading →

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