Tag Archives: bulimia

After a Binge ~ A Conversation

I  can’t believe I did it again.  What was I thinking? I am 31 years old! When does it stop??!! It’s done. Forgive yourself. What do I do now? I’m a fraud. I’m ridiculous…pathetic. I’m so tempted… We don’t do … Continue reading

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The Scale

The Scale and I have a tempestuous relationship.  It’s been a lesson in obsession and full-blown avoidance.  When I was deep in my bulimia I weighed myself several times a day.  And then…after attending nutrition school I felt like I should … Continue reading

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This Weight

I used to weigh 215 lbs.  I share this with you not to look for sympathy, earn your disgust or to make you feel bad about yourself.  I say it to release it.  That was me then.  What I was on the … Continue reading

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Where My Worth Lies

I am not what I eat.  What I eat is a reflection of where I am at, but it does not define me.  It never did.  For instance, I have had a VERY emotional month.  This is a big growth spurt … Continue reading

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Feeding My Fear

Sweet, sweet self-realization! I have come to realize how many unhealthy behaviours I have exhibited in the past and how all of them have stemmed from fear.  Wowza.  There’s the bulimia, the chronic lying, the panic attacks, the postpartum depression….etc….you … Continue reading

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Shedding That Which Does Not Serve Me

I am much lighter these days.  I have been losing things left and right in a most conscious way!  I have lost negative beliefs, resentments, shames and even some guilt.  That this inner work should reflect on my outer appearance … Continue reading

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Can’t Go Back

It would be so easy to go back.  I could feel that rush of relief.  I could feel better knowing it was out of me.  It is gone…purged.  It would be so comforting to know that my moment of weakness … Continue reading

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